The Sutra on Knowing
the Better Way to Live Alone
©
Thich Nhat Hanh

Dear Sangha, today is the fifth of
April 1998. We are in the Upper Hamlet, in Spring
Retreat. Now we have come to the liturgy for Thursday
morning. It includes the Sutra on Knowing the Better Way
to Live Alone, and the Sutra on the Forty Verses or
Ratnagunasamcaya. The Sutra on Knowing the Better Way to
Live Alone is called the Bhaddekaratta Sutta in Pali. It
belongs to the Majjhima Nikaya 131.
"Knowing how to live alone" here
does not mean to live in solitude, separated from other
people, on a mountain in a cave. "Living alone" here
means living to have sovereignty of yourself, to have
freedom, not to be dragged away by the past, not to be
in fear of the future, not being pulled around by the
circumstances of the present. We are always master of
ourselves, we can grasp the situation as it is, and we
are sovereign of the situation and of ourselves. There
are many places in the sutras where the Buddha says that
"being alone" does not mean to be separated from other
people. We can be sitting in a cave, but we are not
necessarily alone, because we have lost ourselves in our
thinking, so we are not alone. In the Majjhima Nikaya
there are at least four sutras that talk about the
subject of knowing how to live alone, and in the
Madhyama Agama there are also sutras that talk about the
subject of living alone. Therefore, we know that the
subject of living alone is a very important subject in
the teachings of the Buddha. We have to know how to do
this, how to live in freedom, not being imprisoned by
the future and not being carried away by things in the
present.
The Sutra on Knowing the Better Way
to Live Alone teaches us how to live each moment of our
daily life very deeply. When we can live our daily life
deeply, we begin to have concentration and wisdom; we
can see the true nature of life, and we arrive at a
great freedom, and freedom is the essence of happiness.
If we are suffering, it is because we are not free, and
therefore to practice is to recover our freedom. When we
have freedom, we will become solid. Freedom and solidity
are the two characteristics of nirvana, so we need a
program of freedom and solidity. If somebody is
suffering, we know that person is not free; because they
are not free, they are suffering, they are being
imprisoned by the past, or they are being oppressed by
the present, or they are being carried away by the
future, and that is why they are suffering. The practice
is to re-establish our freedom, and then we will no
longer suffer, and our happiness will increase. The
oldest writings on the better way to live alone, on how
to live deeply in the present moment, are found in this
sutra.
For example, someone hears the
doctor say, "You have cancer, you may live for six
months more." That person feels completely overwhelmed.
The fear, the idea that I’m going to die in six months
takes away all our peace and joy. Before the doctor told
us that we had cancer, we had the capacity to enjoy
ourselves with our friends. However, once the doctor
told us that, we lose all our capacity to sit and enjoy
our tea, or enjoy our meal, or watch the moon, because
we are so afraid of the moment when we will die. It
takes away all our freedom. If you know that death is
something that comes to everybody, you will not suffer
so much. The doctor says we have six months left to
live, but the doctor also will die. Maybe the doctor
knows we have six months, but the doctor does not know
how many months he himself has left to live. Maybe the
doctor will die before us. Maybe driving home after the
examination he will have an accident, and therefore the
knowledge of the doctor isn’t so great. He tells us we
only have six months left. We may be lucky to live six
months, because the doctor may die before us. So if we
look deeply we see things, which if we don’t look deeply
we wouldn’t see. Looking deeply we can get back our
freedom from fear, and with that freedom, with our
non-fear, we may live happily those six months.
All of us are equal as far as life
and death are concerned: we are all going to die. So it
is very equal—it will happen to everybody. Everyone has
to die, but before we die, can we live properly? I am
determined to live properly until I die. That is a very
awakened thing to say. If we are going to die, then we
have to live the best we can, and if we can live six
months in the best way we can then the quality of that
six months will be as if we were living for six years,
or sixty years. If our life is filled with being caught
in the fetters of suffering, then our life doesn’t have
the same kind of meaning as if we live in freedom. So
knowing that we have to die, I am determined to live my
life properly, deeply. All of us have to die, but if we
are able to live with peace, joy, and freedom before we
die, then we live as if we are dead already, even before
we die.
First of all, the Buddha teaches us
that we must struggle to get back our freedom, to be
able to live the moments of our daily life deeply. In
these moments of our daily life we can have peace, we
can have joy, and we can heal the suffering we have in
our bodies and in our minds. Living deeply at each
moment of our life helps us to be in touch with the
wonderful things of life, helps us to nourish our body
and our mind with these wonderful elements, and at the
same time helps us to embrace and transform the
suffering that we have. So to live deeply in the present
moment of every day of our life is to live a life of
wonder, nourishment, and healing. Living like that we
can revive our freedom, and live deeply: we give rise to
the truth, we have awakened understanding, and our
fears, our anxieties, our sufferings, and our sadness,
will evaporate, and we will become a source of joy and
life to ourselves and to those around us. According to
Buddhism, that is the method of dwelling happily in the
present moment. Looking carefully, we will see that this
writing on knowing the better way to live alone is the
oldest human writing about how to live the present
moment, so it is a very important sutra. We should study
it carefully, and then apply it in our lives and in the
practice. We know that all the teachings related to the
teachings on living in the present moment should be
studied in the same way.
There was a monk whose name was
Thera. His friends probably gave him the name Thera,
which means "the elder." That monk liked to live on his
own. He always went off on the alms round on his own. He
liked to do walking meditation on his own. He like to
eat on his own, he liked to wash his clothes on his own.
He really liked to do everything on his own. He seemed
to like to avoid his friends in the practice as much as
possible. All the monks had heard the Buddha praising
the better way to live alone, but the way the Buddha
used the meaning of "living alone," he meant not to be
imprisoned by the past, not to be pulled away by the
future, and not to be carried away by what was happening
in the present. The Buddha did not mean that living
alone means to distance yourself and separate yourself
from your friends in the practice. Nevertheless, this
monk liked to do things on his own, eating on his own,
going to the town on his own, and avoiding other people.
The other monks knew that he liked to do things alone,
but they felt that there was something not quite right
about this way of life. They felt that he wasn’t really
practicing according to the spirit of the Buddha’s
teachings. So the other monks went to the Buddha and
they said, "Lord Buddha, one of our fellow practitioners
called Thera, the elder, likes to do everything on his
own: walking meditation, eating meditation, working on
his own, and we don’t know if living like that that is
really truly living alone." And Buddha said, "Where is
that monk? Ask him to come here and have a cup of tea
with us." So the monks went and invited Thera to join
them, and the Buddha said, "I hear you like to live
alone. How do you live on your own? Please tell me." And
Thera said, "Lord Buddha, I sit in meditation alone, I
eat on my own, I wash my clothes on my own, I go into
the village for alms on my own." And the Buddha said,
"Oh, that is true, then you really do live alone. But
maybe the way you live alone is not the best way to live
alone, there is a better way to live alone." And then
the Buddha recited a gatha: "If you live without being
imprisoned by the past, not being pulled away by the
future, not being carried away by the forms and images
of the present moment, living each moment of your life
deeply, that is the true way of living alone." When
Thera heard this he knew that he had been living alone
just as an outer form, and there was a deeper way to
live alone.
The sutra where this story is told
is called the Theranama Sutra, it is in the Samyutta
Nikaya, and there is also an equivalent sutra in the
Samyukta Agama, it is Number 71 in the Samyukta Agama.
The essence of the sutra is a poem. The Buddha wrote
poems, but the poems of the Buddha were more designed to
show us how to practice. The gatha which talks about the
art of living alone is called the Bhaddekaratta gatha,
Bhaddekaratta means "the best way to live alone." Many
people have mistranslated this title: One master
translated it as "practicing for one night." There’s
also another master who translated this title as "being
present." The correct translation is to say "The better
way to practice living alone." This poem says:
Do not pursue the past.
Do not lose yourself in the future.
The past no longer is.
The future has not yet come.
Looking deeply at life as it is
in the very here and now,
the practitioner dwells
in stability and freedom.
All of the essence of the Buddha’s
teachings lies in these words. We know that stability
and freedom are the two characteristics of nirvana, and
that is the aim of our practice. The aim of our practice
is that every moment of our daily life we can produce
stability and freedom: walking, lying down, sitting,
standing, we produce freedom and stability. Nirvana is
something we can touch right in the present moment, not
only with our mind, but also with our body. When our
feet are walking in a leisurely way, solid and free,
then our feet are touching nirvana. As soon as we have
stability and freedom, nirvana is there. The level of
freedom and stability tells us whether we have been able
to touch nirvana deeply. Do not pursue the past. There
are people who are tired of the present and think that
the past was more beautiful, and that life was more
beautiful before. They always think the past was more
beautiful. Therefore, they cannot see the happiness of
the present. Many of us are caught in this way of
thinking. The past is no longer there, and we compare it
with the present, and we say that the past was more
beautiful than the present; but even when we had those
moments in the past we didn’t really value them at the
time, because in the past we were not able to live in
the present moment. We were always running after the
future, and now if we were taken back to the past, we
would do the same. At that time life was more beautiful,
the sun was brighter, the moon was brighter--those are
words from a French song. There are people who pursue
the past, not because they think the past was beautiful,
but because the past has made them suffer, the past was
a trauma, a heavy wound for them. We have suffered, we
have been wounded, we have died in the past, and those
heavy wounds are calling us back to the past, crying,
"Come back here, come back to the past. I am the
subject, you cannot escape me." That is what the past
says to us. We are like sheep running back to the past,
to enclose us, to imprison us, to make us suffer. The
past is also a very great prison. We hear the words of
the past, and we run back to the past, we refuse to live
our life in the present moment, we are always going back
to the past. So the Buddha says, "Don’t pursue the
past."
These are the words of our teacher:
"Don’t pursue the past." We should write a poem, how can
we write a poem so we are able to do this? Sometimes we
are sitting with our friend. Our friend is sitting
there, but we feel abandoned by our friend, because our
friend is drowning in the past. Our friend is sitting
next to us, but our friend is not with us, our friend is
imprisoned by the past. Our friend is there, but our
friend is not really there. We know that we are sitting
there, and we feel that our friend is not sitting there
with us. So we find a way to free our friend from the
past, and we say to our friend: "A penny for your
thoughts. What are you thinking about? Tell me. I’ll
give you ten centimes if you tell me." That person may
wake up, jump up and smile and be free from the prison
of the past. If we are a monk or a nun, we should know
how to do this. We should know the method of being able
to release our friend in the practice who is imprisoned
and drowning in the past. We have to use our love, our
mindfulness, and our friendship, to help that person out
of the prison of the past. If we are a monk or a nun, we
should know how to use our brothers and sisters in the
practice to help us get out of our prison of the past.
Therefore, living in a Sangha has these kinds of
benefits.
(bell)
The Sanghakaya helps us in every
step. The Sanghakaya brings us out of our prison of the
past. The Sanghakaya takes our hand and leads us step by
step into the present, so that we develop the capacity
to dwell peacefully in the present. The moment when we
shave our head, the moment when our teacher sprinkles
water of compassion on our head, that moment is the
moment when we are reborn, born a second time. All the
Sangha is present around us, with their palms joined,
while the drops of compassionate water penetrate us.
With the water which is sprinkled on the top of our
heads, we become a new person at that moment. That
moment is the moment when we die. We allow the past to
die, and we allow the present to be born. Our teacher
and the Sangha are bringing us into life, giving us a
new soul, a new body, a precepts body, a Dharma body,
and that precepts body, that Dharma body are protected
by Buddha, Dharma, Sangha and precepts. There is no
reason for us to fear, and there is no reason for us to
feel isolated or alone. There is no reason for us to be
worried about anything. There is no need for us to worry
about all the things that have happened in the past, all
the bitterness of the past.
We can kneel, we can close our eyes,
join our palms, and visualize this moment with the water
of compassion falling on our head, and we can see
ourselves being born anew. Our teacher and the Sangha
are transmitting to us our precepts body, and we have
the duty to allow our teacher and the Sangha to lead us
step by step on this new path. We see we are protected,
we are secure, with security from the Buddha, the Dharma
and the Sangha, and the precepts; and never before in
our life have we felt as we feel at this moment. If we
allow the Sangha to wake us up, if we allow our teacher
to wake us up, we will see that we are in a state of
security we have never been in before. If we live like
that every day, our feelings of anxiety, of fear, will
disappear. We will be able to dwell happily in the
present moment, and each step will take us into
happiness in the present moment, into freedom. That is
our daily practice. "Do not pursue the past" is what
this means. Sometimes we don’t want to go back into the
past, but the past grabs hold of us and pulls us back,
so we have to organize things carefully, and we have to
base our organization on the support of Buddha, Dharma
and Sangha. We have to look directly into the past and
smile at it, and say, "You can no longer oppress me. I
am free of you." Only the energy of mindfulness, the
Three Jewels of Buddha, Dharma, and Sangha, have enough
power and strength to help us to be free of the past. We
see that the past is just a ghost. We know that the past
is a ghost, but we allow the ghost to imprison us.
Therefore a practitioner should know how to take hold of
the present with the help of the Buddha, the Dharma, the
Sangha and the precepts, in order to come back to the
present, and not allow the ghosts of the past to pull us
back into the past. "Do not pursue the past," can you
hear the Buddha saying that to you?
Do not imagine things and lose
yourself in the future. What is the future? Is the
future with ghost number two? Why are we so afraid of
the future? What is fear? Is fear our plans about things
which will happen tomorrow? Or is our fear our
projections we have of the future, tomorrow? Maybe this
will happen, or that will happen…we project it like
that. And that is what makes us afraid. Fear does not
naturally come about, fear comes from our thinking. Our
thinking that this will happen tomorrow, that will
happen tomorrow. Notice the future is something that is
not yet there. Because the future is never there--once
it’s there it’s the present. But the future is a ghost.
A very big ghost, which sucks us up, and our fear arises
from our projections that tomorrow this will happen, or
tomorrow I will be like that. "What will become of me
tomorrow?" Our fear is based on that. And the ghosts of
the past and the ghosts of the future are two ghosts
with great responsibility for taking away our freedom.
We are slaves of these two ghosts. What is Mara? Who is
Mara? Mara is the past, Mara is the future, those two
Maras follow us and condition our life, order us about.
We should not allow this to happen, we should not lie
under the influence of these two ghosts. We have to have
a way of dealing with these two ghosts, and the method
is the better way to live alone, the way of living each
moment in the present moment, not pursuing the past and
not running after the future.
"The past is no longer there. The
future has not yet come." That is just logic. We all
know the past is just a ghost, why should we be so
attached to it? And the future is just a ghost, why do
we have to be so afraid of it? There’s only one thing,
that is the present, but we don’t know how to live the
present moment, and we allow the past and the future to
drown us, to overwhelm us. "The past is no longer there.
The future has not yet come." Are there any words in the
sutra which are more precise, more concise? No word too
many. You should live your daily moments deeply, as they
occur: live and know that you are living. Like a flower,
you know that it is alive, and you can look at it deeply
and you can live with it deeply, and you can see the
deep levels of the flower. You live with a smile, you
live with the sunshine. All these things become the
objects of your looking deeply. They are your friends in
the practice.
The practitioner dwells in stability
and freedom, and "dwell" means to live peacefully. The
practitioner means someone who has wisdom, it doesn’t
mean somebody who has just got a degree, or been to the
university. Here it means someone who has wisdom, that
is, someone who is not carried away by the ghosts of the
past, who is not grasped at by the ghosts of the future,
someone who knows how to live in a peaceful and joyful
way, right in the present moment. That person can sit
still, walk at peace, and that person has the essence of
peace and freedom within him or her, and that is a wise
person. Another way of translating this line is: "the
wise person dwells in peace with solidity and freedom."
All the teachings of the Buddha that have been given,
the Dharma, and the Sangha, are there to help us to live
in the present moment. When a monk takes a step, the
monk has to practice dwelling peacefully. Each step the
monk takes should be solid and free, and the monk is
taking steps like the Buddha. When a nun sits down, she
should sit solidly, like a mountain, sitting in
mindfulness. We are always being carried away by the
past and the future, but in the Sangha, everybody is
training to practice living in the present moment, so
when we live in a Sangha we have the opportunity to do
this, to sit solidly. When we eat, we really eat. We
have forty-five minutes or an hour to eat, and those are
forty-five minutes or an hour of happiness, because we
are really there. We are washing our clothes, and that
is our practice. Sweeping the floor is our practice,
cleaning the toilet is our practice. The main thing
about the practice is that we are really there to do
these things, and we have the Sangha there supporting
us.
"We must be diligent today, to wait
until tomorrow is too late." There is only today, let us
do the best we can do today. People have given us all
the conditions for practicing mindfulness, and yet we
don’t do it, we say we’ll do it tomorrow, we needn’t do
it today. But tomorrow’s too late, because of
impermanence. "Death comes unexpectedly, how can we
bargain with it?" Then you say to death, "Oh, I haven’t
had time to practice properly, give me another couple of
days." However, we can’t bargain like that with death,
we cannot make a deal with death. Therefore death
becomes something which stimulates us, motivates us, to
help us live in solidity and freedom. So when the doctor
says, "You have six months left," we can say, "Okay,
then I will live that six months properly." And the
doctor should say, "I will do the same," because the
doctor also does not know how long he will live. So the
fact of having to die helps the practitioner know that
the days that are left have to be lived properly,
solidly, in freedom, with happiness. That is the best
way of laying the future for your descendants.
When the doctor says that you have
six months left to live, that is a bell of mindfulness
for you. We all have six months left to live, or seven
months, or ten years, and the Buddha says, "Be diligent
today, to wait until tomorrow is too late. Death comes
unexpectedly." The person who knows how to live in
mindfulness day and night the Buddha calls "the one who
knows the better way to live alone." Here they call the
Buddha the great muni. So the way to live alone is to
live dwelling in mindfulness night and day.
We hear about ghost stories and we
are afraid, but we have a tendency to like hearing ghost
stories. People say that according to scientists there
aren’t any ghosts, but clearly there are ghosts: ghosts
of the past, ghosts of the future, those two ghosts
which we meet every day. When we were children, adults
said. "When you meet a ghost make the peace mudra and
say, Om, mani, padme hum!" and so we learned that by
heart. And one night we had a dream, and we saw a ghost,
and we made the peace mudra and we said, "Om, mani,
padme, hum!" but the ghost didn’t seem to be afraid at
all. The ghost just stayed there. But that kind of ghost
we see in a dream is not a bad ghost. The bad ghosts are
the ghosts of the past and the future.
The ghosts of the past and future,
although they are bad ghosts, if we know how to deal
with them, we will never fall under their influence, we
only have to smile at them, we only need to breathe and
come back to our mindfulness, and the energy of
mindfulness helps us to smile and say "Oh, I know you
are a ghost", and they can’t do anything to hurt us,
because in that smile there is the Buddha, the Dharma
and the Sangha. The reason we are caught by the ghosts
of the past and the future is that we don’t know that
they’re ghosts, and the smile to them is the smile of
enlightenment. It has mindfulness in it, so we should
practice smiling at the ghost of the past, and say, "I
know you are the ghost of the past, and that is all you
are." And then you are free. The ghost of the future is
the same. When we are afraid of the future, we know that
the ghost of the future is there. We have to look at
that fear, and we have to say, "I know that you’re only
a ghost." Mara appears many times in our daily life.
Every time Mara appears, we have to say, "I know you’re
Mara." And the Buddha smiles and says that when he sees
Mara. In the sutras, Mara is always appearing and all
the practitioner needs to do is to smile and say, "I
recognize you, I know you are Mara." So whoever knows
the practice, knows that the smile of mindfulness
towards the Mara of the past or the Mara of the future
is the only way to deal with it, and when we smile like
that, it shows we have love for ourselves, and we don’t
make the past or the future an enemy. The past and the
future are not our enemies.
Now we are going to read from the
beginning of the Discourse on Knowing the Better Way to
Live Alone:
I heard these words of the Buddha
one time when the Lord was staying at the monastery in
the Jeta Grove, in the town of Sravasti. He called all
the monks to him and instructed them, "bhikkhus!" And
the bhikkhus replied, "We are here." The Blessed One
taught: "I will teach you what is meant by knowing the
better way to live alone. I will begin with an outline
of the teaching, and then I will give a detailed
explanation. bhikkhus, please listen carefully."
"Blessed One, we are listening." The Buddha taught:
We see clearly that the Buddha has a
poem here, and the Buddha had composed a poem and he
asked the monks to come and listen to him recite the
poem that he composed, just like the poem that he gave
to the monk, Thera. The Buddha replied to Thera very
kindly. He said, "Living alone as you live alone, eating
alone, walking alone, sitting alone, they are truly ways
of living alone, but they are not the best way of living
alone." Buddha thought, "I have to teach him properly."
And then Buddha recited this poem:
"Bhikkhus, what is meant by
‘pursuing the past?’ When someone thinks about the way
his body was in the past, the way his feelings were in
the past, the way his perceptions were in the past, the
way his mental factors were in the past, the way his
consciousness was in the past; when he thinks about
these things, and his mind is burdened by and attached
to these things which belong to the past, then that
person is pursuing the past".
Who is that person? That person is
all of us. We have all been the victims of the past. We
have been wounded in the past. Our body has been treated
badly in the past, our feelings have been destroyed in
the past, our perceptions have been darkened in the
past, our mental factors have been full of sadness and
sorrow in the past, and our consciousness has been
covered in ignorance in the past. In short, in the past,
a person that has form, feelings, perceptions, mental
formations and consciousness, ourselves in the past, has
suffered and these experiences, these impressions have
been carefully hidden away in the depths of our
unconscious mind. And although we don’t want to pursue
them, we don’t want to remember them, because every time
we remember them we suffer, we feel sad, we worry. We
think that if the past was like that, how will the
future be? So when the ghost of the past comes--it is
closely linked to the ghost of the future--we’re afraid
of the future because our past has been like that. And
because our experiences of the past are so sad, we know
that if they were revived we would suffer and we would
not be able to bear it, so we grit our teeth to get
through and do our best to bury all our past experiences
deep in our unconscious. Sometimes when we are sleeping
they stir around while we are dreaming and come up, and
the more we try to repress them the more they try to
come up. We have a defense mechanism, which does its
best to hide our suffering from us, and to bring about
some kind of peace and joy in a superficial way. That is
how we manage to continue living. We know there is a
bomb, explosives, deep down in our consciousness, but
they are covered over by many layers. We have buried
them, pushed them down, and in our daily life, although
we don’t want to think about these things, these things
secretly move around and they instruct us in what we
should do, force us to do things. When we speak, we want
to say something sweet, but we don’t say something sweet
because something is ordering us from deep down to say
something unkind. We want to open our hearts to people,
but we can’t do it, because we are being ordered around
by the sufferings we have concealed deep in our
consciousness. So, in the past our body was like that,
our feelings like that, our perceptions like that, our
mental formations like that, our consciousness like
that. When we think about these things, and our mind is
burdened by and attached to these things which belong to
the past, then we are pursuing the past. Whether a
person consciously or unconsciously goes back to the
past, that person is still pursuing the past.
First of all, we are wounded by the
past, and secondly, whether they are very beautiful
experiences or wounds from the past, those things pull
us back into the past. Therefore, we have to be aware
that if we don’t practice we will always be a victim of
the Mara of the past. Buddha doesn’t mean we have to
forget the past, or bury the past, or pretend that the
past never happened. That is not what the Buddha means.
Why? Because the past has become the present, and if we
can live deeply in the present we can transform the
past. In the present we have habit energies, very clear
habit energies in the present, and when we can recognize
those habit energies, and smile at those habit energies,
we can free ourselves from those habit energies and
transform them. Let me remind you again, we can return
to the past in two ways. One is consciously, expressly,
and the other is unconsciously, with a ghost pulling us
back into the past. At the same time, the method of
practice we use, called "dwelling peacefully in the
present moment," is not to hide the fact that we are
influenced by the past, because all the suffering of the
past, all the ignorance and infatuation of the past, is
present in this moment. It’s present in the form of the
present, the way we behave, the way we speak, the way we
walk, those things are conditioned by what happened in
the past. Therefore we have to live the present moment
in order to see clearly what is happening in the
present, and when we see that clearly, we can smile at
it, and we can transform it.
The Buddha says that the wise person
dwells peacefully in the present moment, looking deeply
at life in the present moment. There are two ways of
living: the first is to be in touch with the wonderful
things of life, the things which have the capacity to
nourish us; so we live in the present moment in order to
be in touch with the wonderful elements which have the
capacity to nourish and to heal. And the second way is
to live in the present moment in order to look deeply
and to be able to see the habits, the customs which are
ordering us around, which are commanding us to say
things which we don’t want to say, which are ordering us
to think the things we don’t want to think, ordering us
to do the things we don’t want to do, because they are
destructive to us and to our peace. Only when we dwell
peacefully in the present moment can we recognize all
this and transform it. And once we transform, then the
Mara of the past cannot do anything to harm us. In the
past we have suffered, and because of our suffering in
the past, we are afraid. That is why in the present we
are afraid. There is nothing worthy of being afraid of,
yet we’re still afraid. That fear is not based on
anything—it is just a habit. And because of that habit
we have patterns of behavior which bring about moods in
which we feel ill at ease, we lose our ease, our feeling
of ease. We have to look deeply at life as it is in the
present moment and see the face of these things, these
habit energies, and we say, "Ah, that is a habit energy;
that is something which is stopping me from opening my
heart, stopping me from being able to love." And when we
are in touch and recognizing it with a smile like that,
that habit energy will disappear and the Mara of the
past will also be transformed. Therefore, in this
section, the Buddha teaches that if we allow ourselves
to return to the past, allow the Mara of the past to
take hold of us, then we don’t have an opportunity to
live the present, and we will not be nourished and
healed by the wonderful things in the present.
"Bhikkhus, what is meant by ‘not
pursuing the past?’ When someone thinks about the way
his body was in the past, his feelings were in the past,
his perceptions were in the past, his mental factors
were in the past, his consciousness was in the past…" it
means that we can think about the past, but we should
not allow the past to take hold of us. The Buddha never
says we can’t think about the past—we have a right to
think about the past, to think that in the past that
happened to me, my body was like that, my mind was like
that, we can think about it, but don’t let these things
pull you around, or imprison you.
"If he thinks about the way these
things were in the past, but his mind is not enslaved by
nor attached to these things which belong to the past,
then that person is not pursuing the past." Some people
think that dwelling peacefully in the present moment
means they can only think about the present, they cannot
think about the past, but that is not true. If we are
able to establish ourselves solidly in the present, we
can look deeply at the past and we can be liberated from
the past. For example, we tell a story of something that
happened to us in the past. There are two ways of
telling the story: one, we tell it in such a way that we
are wholly taken up, we are held by that story in the
past, and we cry like rain falling down and then we
cannot help ourselves to escape from that. The other way
is that we establish ourselves solidly in the present
moment with a brother or sister beside us, and we tell
the story of our past for them to hear, and we tell
exactly what happened, but we tell it in a very even
way, the past does not pull us away so that we cry,
tears falling.
We dwell solidly in the present in
order to look deeply into the past. We should not say
that the practice of mindfulness in Plum Village does
not allow you to look at the past. Once we are dwelling
solidly in the present, we can look at the past. If we
are weak in the practice we need to know how to produce
more mindfulness, and have brothers and sisters
supporting us in order to be ready to look into the past
without being carried away by the past. And that is why
the Sangha is important. If you want to look deeply into
the past, you should know who is stronger, you or the
ghost of the past. If you feel that the ghost of the
past is still stronger than you are, you should practice
more walking meditation and sitting meditation in order
to make yourself stronger, and then have your brothers
and sisters sitting near you when you look deeply into
the past. So, this is the program, to be able to face
the past. If you live in the Sangha, with people
practicing with you, you have a very favorable condition
to be able to look deeply into the past.
"Bhikkhus, what is meant by ‘losing
yourself in the future?’ When someone thinks about the
way his body will be in the future, the way his feelings
will be in the future, the way his perceptions will be
in the future, the way his mental factors will be in the
future, the way his consciousness will be in the future;
when he thinks about these things and his mind is
burdened by and daydreaming about these things which
belong to the future, then that person is losing himself
in the future." And so it is a kind of fear. All these
things are Mara, and if Mara of the past or Mara of the
future takes hold of you, you are no longer really able
to live the present moment. You should know that the
Pure Land, the Sukhavati, the Paradise, are only in the
present moment, and we lose the Pure Land or Paradise
because the ghosts of the past and the future pull us
away from the present. An arhat is someone who is able
to destroy the Mara of the past and the future. Sadness
and fear are names of Mara, of two ghosts, two large
ghosts.
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We should return to the story of the
person who is told by the doctor that he has only six
months to live. He says, "Okay, I know I will die in six
months." But he shouldn’t be so sure the doctor is
right, because doctors often predict wrongly. Some
people are told that they have only six months to live
but they live for many years. It depends on the way that
we live. All the same, we say, "Okay, from now until I
die I am going to live properly, with peace and freedom
and solidity, and I’m going to make the quality of my
life so much better." And once that person is free, is
not caught in the past or the future, is not afraid of
the future and can live solidly, free in the present
moment, and see deeply what life is about, then that
person will see that his or her life span is limitless.
We have read other sutras. We know
that sutras such as the Lotus Sutra, the Vajracchedika
Sutra, talk about the lifespan of the Buddha as being
limitless. The idea of a lifespan--that I was born at
that particular moment, that I will die at that
particular moment, and my life between those two moments
is my lifespan--that is because we don’t know how to
live solidly and freely in the present moment. If we
live solidly and freely in the present moment and look
at life deeply, we will discover that our lifespan is
limitless, like the lifespan of the Buddha. And the
thing which is called birth cannot touch our lives, and
death cannot touch our lifespan. We see that there isn’t
life, birth and death—there are manifestation and
latency. We can be in touch with no-birth and no-death,
and after six months or sixty years, it doesn’t make any
difference. When we can be in touch with the birthless
and deathless nature, birth and death cannot oppress us
anymore. This is what Tue Trung Thuong si said: "The
idea of birth and death have oppressed us, but now they
cannot touch us any more." And when the doctor says we
have six months left to live, or whether he says it’s
one month or thirty years, it doesn’t make any
difference, because we are going to live our time with
peace and solidity and freedom. And if we can do that we
may live longer than the doctor. The doctor may die
before we do, because the doctor lives without
mindfulness, without peace, without joy, without a
Sangha, but we have been woken up by the sound of this
bell, and we have decided to live our life with peace,
with joy and this life of peace and joy may help us to
live longer than the doctor
"Bhikkhus, what is meant by not
losing yourself in the future?’ When someone thinks
about the way his body will be in the future, the way
his feelings will be in the future, the way his
perceptions will be in the future, the way his mental
factors will be in the future, the way his consciousness
will be in the future, when he thinks about these things
but his mind is not burdened by or daydreaming about
these things which belong to the future, then he is not
losing himself in the future." Dwelling peacefully in
the future, we are not afraid. We think that whatever
will happen to us in the future, we will not be afraid.
We are not afraid of death, because we have lived
deeply, we have looked deeply, we have been in touch
with the world of no-birth and no-death, and so at that
moment we know that this corpse is not us, we do not
identify with the body, so we are not afraid. There are
people who think of their moment of death, and they
suffer, they suffer thinking about leaving their dear
ones. And there are others who think about death, and
they can smile. Why is that? What is the difference? The
difference is that one person is able to live deeply the
present moment, and therefore sees the non-birth,
non-death nature of life, whereas the other person
isn’t. So it is because we purposely do not want to
think about death that we fear death. We do think about
death, and we do it in order to look deeply at it. The
practitioner is told that every day they should repeat
the Five Remembrances: "I am of the nature to grow old;
there is no way to escape growing old. I am of the
nature to have ill health; there is no way to escape ill
health. I am of the nature to die; there is no way to
escape death. All that is dear to me and everyone I love
are of the nature to change. There is no way to escape
being separated from them." The Buddha told us we must
practice looking like this every day. Buddha is our
doctor. Buddha reminds us of this in order to help us
return to the present moment and live deeply in the
present moment. And if we can live deeply in the present
moment, we will go beyond ideas of old age, death and
sickness. We can smile, and if any of these things
happen to us we are happy, because this is an
opportunity for us to begin anew.
The Fifth Remembrance is "My actions
are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the
consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground on
which I stand." In the sutra we see clearly that living
in the present moment does not preclude our thinking
about the past or the future, but we must dwell in the
present moment so that whenever we look deeply into the
past or the future, we are free and we are able to
overcome our fears and our sadness concerning these
things. Because in the teachings of interbeing,
interpenetration, the past makes the future, and the
future is made out of the past. Therefore, being in
touch with the present, we are already being in touch
with the past and the future, but we are not being
carried away by the Maras of the past and the future.
Let us read more: "Bhikkhus, what is
meant by being swept away by the present? When someone
does not study, or learn anything about the Awakened
One, or the teachings of love and understanding, or the
community that lives in harmony and awareness; when that
person knows nothing about the noble teachers and their
teachings, and thinks, ‘This body is myself; I am this
body. These feelings are myself; I am these feelings.
This perception is myself; I am this perception. This
mental factor is myself; I am this mental factor. This
consciousness is myself; I am this consciousness.’ Then
that person is being swept away by the present." This
section is very clear, it is said to explain very
clearly what is meant by the two lines:
"Looking deeply at life as it is in
the very here and now." When we look deeply at life as
it is, we do not think that this body is mine, or say
that this body is me. We say when this body isn’t there
anymore, I’m not there anymore, because thinking like
this we are afraid. And thinking like this is what
enables the Mara of the past and the future to take hold
of us. Therefore living deeply the present moment is to
discover the interbeing nature, the interpenetrating
nature of all things, so that we are not ordered around
by the ignorant idea of self. We do not think, "I am
this body, I am just this body; I am this feeling, I am
just this feeling; I am this mental factor, this mental
factor is me." When we do not identify ourselves with
the body, the feelings, etc., then we are not caught in
the idea about a self, and at that point there is no
ghost who can influence us, either of the past or the
future, because when we can live like that we are
already in the world of no-birth and no-death. When we
are in touch with that world of no-birth and no-death,
we cannot be imprisoned by the past, and the future
cannot produce any fear for us. This is the essence, the
cream of the Buddha’s teachings.
"Bhikkhus, what is meant by not
being swept away by the present? When someone studies
and learns about the Awakened One, the teachings of love
and understanding, and the community that lives in
harmony and awareness; when that person knows about
noble teachers and their teachings, practices these
teachings, and does not think, ‘This body is myself; I
am this body. These feelings are myself; I am these
feelings. This perception is myself; I am this
perception. This mental factor is myself; I am this
mental factor. This consciousness is myself; I am this
consciousness,’ then that person is not being swept away
by the present.’ Just these words, but we can use them
the whole of our life—what belongs to our bodies, what
belongs to our feelings, our mental formations?—we live
them every day, and we see that the causes and
conditions which have brought about these things. We see
that the body is just body, caused and conditioned, the
feelings are feelings, caused and conditioned, and we
are no longer caught in these things, and so the past
and the future and the present cannot oppress us, cannot
order us around.
"Bhikkhus, I have presented the
outline and a detailed explanation of knowing the better
way to live alone." Thus the Buddha taught, and the
Bhikkhus were delighted to put his teachings into
practice."
(Sounds of Thay writing) eka means
one, vihari means dwelling, and dwelling alone…when we
live with a ghost we are not living alone, we are living
with another. You are sitting there, you are eating your
meal, but you have the ghost sitting alongside of you,
therefore you are not living alone. When we see a
brother or a sister sitting with a ghost, we have to
say, "Who are you sitting with?" and then our brother or
sister will wake up. So, don’t allow that ghost to
oppress you. We have to destroy the ghosts, destroy
Mara. In the present we have infatuations, attachments,
sadness, projects, and when we live with these things we
are not living alone, we are living with the ghosts, and
a practitioner should not dwell with ghosts, we should
live alone.
[End of Talk]
Source: plumvillage.org
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